• Over the threshold

    Sometimes you have a moment of overconfidence. That was when I signed up for a network photo shoot organized by photographers @Lydia Hoogland and @Gaby Kooijman.

    But now the time had suddenly come. A dark, drizzly and stormy Friday and I was dreading it terribly. First I had an appointment at the hairdresser and in the afternoon I went to Zwijndrecht for the photo shoot. When I looked in the mirror I thought that would be a disaster. I looked old, gray and snotty and that was only my head. Oh, she should have canceled.

    With a sigh I drove to the hair salon 'd Haar in Dordrecht and told my regular hairdresser Nicolien that I had a photo shoot in the afternoon and asked her to make something nice out of my hair. Nicolien was completely enthusiastic and got to work with a hair dryer and scissors and all kinds of mysterious vans. I looked in amazement at what happened and she transformed myself into a wonderfully round and smooth hairstyle. Then she attentively noticed that I also needed to do something about my eyes and that she had a good colleague who is a stylist. That turned out to be Jamilla. She skillfully got to work with color palettes, brushes and whatnot. I never put make-up on my eyes so it was all unfamiliar territory. When she was done I looked at myself a million times. Totally changed and completely cheered up. I looked amazing. Funny thing was that my hair was so high that I was touching the ceiling of the car with it.

    At home I quickly took a selfie and put on lipstick. Oh yes, put on my GUCCI glasses. So that was complete. I got into a positive mode and put some boots with heels, another sweater and comb in a bag.

    After lunch I drove to Florizz Bar & Kitchen in Zwijndrecht. Parked the car by the river and was more or less blown in by the storm. Lydia and Gaby were already there with another network star. The location was well chosen. Colorful and hip with beautiful spaces. After having gotten to know each other and telling each other what everyone is doing, the photo shoot started. Suddenly all the tension fell away from me and I really enjoyed doing it. Felt myself growing in my role. Felt myself. Joyful. Enjoyed doing everything. After the photo shoot we chatted and went home happy.

    At home I was still happy for a while and glad that I did it after all. What a beautiful experience and memory.

    In the meantime I have received the photos and they are all equally beautiful. Beautiful memory.

    I have chosen two photos to place on my website www.Dikokee.nl. One sitting but also one standing in full. Something that is special to me because I never wanted to be photographed with my fat body completely. Only my head was enough and then only just. Now I think I can be seen. I don't care what others think of me anymore. Actually, I like myself.

    13/01/2025
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